MeAningFul

时间回不到开始的地方。

对于已经错过的人事，

不用再试着去挽留，

走了就走了，

即使回来，

也已经不是从前。

谁能保证那

本该是属于你的？

有些东西原本就是让你牵挂，

而不是获取的。

对于得到，

我们都应该充满感激，

感恩让我们学会珍惜

珍惜让我们时时幸福。

心若平常，

得失都是云烟。

' little thing '

hehe, daddy in good mood =D
we watch hong kong drama together (normally he will scold why i watch drama wheni learn nth from it)
i dont have a habit of after return home n straight away bath, so i ate, watched, then sleep. daddy was like, ask u to bath 1st right?
i : laterr...
daddy : harrr, did u keep the cloth?
i : i did la. those havent dry
daddy : ya meh? okok, my fault
(silent)
daddy : still, u have to bath 1st!
i : later la xD

cute nagging xD

hmmmmm :(

this is not the way it should be like
mind - just let go
heart - stay
what am i now?
can anyone pull be harder out from the hole?
the hole is toooooo deep.
why?
love someone, this is not the way of you showing ur love to the love one.
everyone has feeling.
how can u just b like ntg with others?
i gonna find it out, its suffer, let me die of suffering,
i wan back the me! me! please return me T_T
where am i? who am i? what am i doing?
the feeling im 100000% sure it still there, still, have to hide ><
cried for thousands of minutes. just for you.  

OE - 11/6/13 -

7 month plus, it passed, memories floated around, tears rolling down involuntary(8)
the last was 11/6 , but feeling still there , that fresh, i request for a text everyday. only reason to c him, now, the things we needed the most is TIME.
we missund each other, my prob at the very first,high expectation, never think of ur feeling, but something is true that, i never play with it.
make you smile, i hope i can continue with this, but u dont wanna talk to me
thx for everything

Bowling

Basket robin

Moviesssss
MCD
KFC
Jacket
Card
Money handicraft

i appreciate it very much, thx..
no regret of having you, happy moment always,
keep smiling, no cigarette, study well, do well in ur projek, treat future her nicely, sweetly,
your promise : wont leave :'(
i'll rmb every single thing u tell me.
bye, my love 1, i still love you.

yOu

• draw plan of ur life
• draw a massage inbox form
• my birthday card
• a letters 
• lyrics 

I remember once i asked u , you kena gantung school fo 3 days?
you write it in a essay form , funny !
always make me laugh in the class, ur actions, ur words.
sit beside me for more than half a years
sleeping is ur hobby ? habit? -.-
asked u to study, u did for this sem, i c  ur hard work
but PBS? ishhhh, u did la, but make sure dont postpone again
we sing melody, bruno marz songgg(like it!) , jason marz... fuhhhh xD

-M-E-M-O-R-I-E-S-

My Dearest Grandpa

Things happen, no one can predict what's going to happen in our life..

15/05/2013( Wednesday)

after school, as usual waiting for my mum to fetch me home, but that day, my sis came n fetch me, when i gt into the car, sis said " grandpa admitted at Temerloh hospital, he was fainted when he the treatment of dialysis is on going,  wanna follow?"

1st thing come to my mind was, i need to go n visit him, but how bout my studies? 21 is my final.

when i reach home, mummy with an tearing eyes, asking me whether wanna follow her or not, i say i will, and my heart was thinking i dont wanna miss the chance, i dont wan this to b the last.

after i took my bath, v depart from house to temerloh, sis drove from KL to Bentong, and mum drove from Bentong to Temerloh. it takes bout 3 and a half hour to reach, when we reach, uncle and my cousin was there, and my grandpa is surroundded with small tube around his hand , nose and neck.

without my awareness, the tears rolling down, like water fall... it does, its hard to see him suffer with all the tube, its hard to see him breathing with the support of machaine. Things we do, wake him up , keep calling him, asking him not to sleep so much, he open his eyes! he did, for about 5 to 6 second, thn closed again. Once, he open eyes with tears, my mother, my aunt, go towards him and ask him to stay strong, remind him bout Johor trip that he had suggested weeks ago.

2hours gone, we've been there 4 2 hours, the visiting hours are off.

we have to go back, we go to bentong to have our dinner, my 2 uncle from Johor and Singapore cant go to the hospital during that time to visit my grandpa as the visiting hours are off, and they suggest to stay at my grandma hse 1st, and go to the hospital in the morning.

i stay with my grandma too, as i planned to skip school the next day.

16/05/2013 (Thursday)

woke up around 0730am, changed and get ready to had a breakfast then depart to hospital.

while we are getting ready, uncle which over9 in the hospital, accompany my grandpa, called, asked my grandma to buy some adult dypers for my grandpa. it was at 0800am.

Then few minutes later, the uncle from Johor received a call from the same uncle, saying my grandpa cant ady, passed away. that second, i can only hear my grandma's cry.... 

i hold my tears.. the atmosphere is silent... cool... 

i texted my mum, dad and my sis

sis call me and ask, really cant d ? we both cry otp.

daddy reply and ask me take care of grandma.

my grandma is so strong, stronger than what i expectated.

and the funeral goes on for 3days.

when we are free, we go to the coffin, talk to grandpa, ask him to rest well, no need to suffer anymore.

this thing happen. it just warn me to be with my family members all the time, spend time with them, shre things with them, do make myself feel the feeling of regret.

--- Appreciate What I Have ---

ReSuLT 1

21.3.2013 --- Thursday 

When i reached school in the morning, just only know that result is coming out,
and some of my schoolmates ady get the result, some excited , some was wondering bout which subject to retake...
And me? had check ntg n thought that result coming out at 12pm..
the whole day was wondering how's my result would me.
when im on my way back to classroom from washroom, my classmates told me the network run smooth, can check.. my feeling is excited + scare + stun.
the result overall quite good, pass!
but it just doesnt reach my target...

for this sem, i need to study double hard, hope that PBS really help me
no more playing around
Form 6 life is tough (in study)
all the best to all f6 candidates too.... 

STPM Result Day X me

is so scary to see the senior's expression especially with tears rolling down their cheek.

Is a STPM result day , but the result is for the senior(last batch)

some would be happy with the unexpected result, some were exciting + scare looking at the result, 

some were crying / dissapointed with their result, i know, STPM is though, nothing is easy,

i learnt a lesson, never to let go of any chance of studying,..

i'll study hard, no more words, but action, flying colours result i cant guarantee but, at least i try my 

best to enter U, n be able to make my parents proud =DS

Form 6

our first outing -MV-

life?...
ya, the new life
well, i'm still in school life, many may think that school life is boring and wanted to get rid of it as soon as possible.
but, for me, is another level of my life, no depending on other, set a goal that i'm able to achieve, change attitude of laziness, and train self-desciplin.
Its tough though, because this school i'm studying, have no law at all ( of cause shoool's law did exist, but if no one obey it, the laws is just words --- i miss SMK ST MARY so much )
Form 6 life is hard , everyone know it, study smart n hard would it bring any changes to it?
i hope it can, not to give up any chance of learning.
In deed, i learnt a lot, since lower form., nevertheless, FRIENDS, i meet, cool, awesome, crazy, lovely, friendly, caring xD

--- STUDY ---

我恨你

我真的很讨厌你
你对我的好
让我觉得没人能取代你对我的好
好难接受其他人...

Pulau Ketam?

Pulau Ketam trip is organize by bodhi, kl.
v wnet 4 the meeting b4 the camp, dicuss bout the game n the programmes..
n luncky 2 said i'm the mitra in this camp, it was like guiding the group the finish the games n be the winner..!
v do met friend from the camp, all different faces, diff attitude, but, they still in a team when playing their games although they not really noe their group members well yet..

and i had selected 2 green group, n v do co-operate well in the begining as v dun noe each other yet xD but, sadly 2 said, v r the last group 2 finish up the game, nvm xD
actually they'r kind of friendly if u really talk 2 them..

hmmp... i hope ntg goes wrong..
he is a new trainee singer in bodhi..
n v had a lot of interact during the camp, really had a feeling 2waard him, but, i kind of friend
,n he do cares me, 2 day is the last day, v hav 1hour n 30 min break 4 walk around pulau ketam , he acc me n sis walk around pulau ketam...thn sis say wan bak temple(pulau ketam de temple-- where v over9 there), he ask me wan go walk anot.. i was like ok lo.. ntg 2 do.. still gt 30 mins more..and so v 2 walk walk n talk , no awkward between us.. btw, his attitude n lifestyle kinda same as mine, i guess y v can get along so smoothly? xD
v are like twins, but the feeling i felt is like different way >

Hope u like it ^^

erm...? xD
for u la, Wong wei yee!
12/6 is coming... huhuhu... excited?..
consider late n in a rush of preparing the present..
i started printed the pic, collect the wishes.. by 1/6 , n yesterday nite done it all..
guess wat,... till 2am man!
ishhhh...but seriously, i din feel sleepy =]
cz i noe is worth 4 me 2 use up my time, money, energy 4 u...
i noe the relation v hav will last long, n v need each other no matter wat happen -- Best friend!

i think the pos man will pos the "book" 2 u lastest by thuurs ba..
actualy i wan it sent 2 ur hse badly on that day ... but... haiz...
fine.. i'd sent 2 the pos tis afternoon -.-
i think u will shout n open it with ur smiling n shock face xDD
keep imagine... yet, still hope u will like it <3

the others blank pages is 4 our next outing memory, so keep it !
saranghaee!

人的忍耐是有限的

when my phone vibrate, i had a feeling of scare u noe..
i dun wish 2 find reason anymore juz 2 avoid ur call...
my phone credit's expired is a good things.. but impossible 4ever ><
and u had changed me, u noe?...
even me, myself dun noe! as my friend told me only thn i go n notice my every moment..

your chatting 4 me, doesn't means "chat" ..
u dun even noe i will sleep early every nite...
even 1 am u could tell me is still early.. but 4 me isn't at all T_T

yesterday i had step out n said everythings out, but y dun u juz giv up?..
is it tat difficult?,... i dun wan spill out any words tat will made us feel awkward when we meet..
please understand it... i think i'm just too soft-hearted.. but, ur action now , 4 me, its means annoy!

juz leave me alone plz...

there's time v need something to remind us..

v do dream.. but..
this time, is maychia, she dreamt of me..
she dreamt tat i had something bad happrn (touch wood)
n she notice tat she cried when she is awake..
and i notice that ,i should be happy tat my friend that around me care me so much, appreciate!

<3 this is wat truely friend r rite? xD
miss n lov ya <3

dreaming?!

juz cant believe that daddy bought me laptop.. i juz didn't demand bout it..
thanks daddy.. i really appreciated it <3
seriously.. i might b naughty, but i do guilty bout my action..

dreaming?.. haa..
cz daddy buy phone 4 me tooo~~~
galaxy w .. *hohohoho*
i had actually asked daddy buy me 2weeks ago.. xD
mayb felt annoyed xD
misssss~~~
thx..
i will do my thing will..

有是这种感觉 ><
不知道要怎样面对...
我觉得你很像我， 能看透,觉得自己好了解你..
但为什么会有怪怪的感觉？...
让自己心痛先，让你死心先 T_T

~ Sri Lanka 13/3/12-18/3/12 ~

the 1st day, 9am depart from house and take KLIA express train to airport..is my 1st time goin oversea without parents, n consider my 2nd times sit plane~

v enter the plane at 230pm, n before this v had go round the airport n aim 4 the chocolate v

wanna buy after the trip xD

Took group wif rev sriwimala and rev maitri, they pass us the booklet 4 ur 2 bring 2 Sri Lanka.

at Kuala Lumpur airport, anticipating =P

yeah!
leave Malaysia...

The tour guide(Mr. Slivia) warmly welcome us wif holding 1 card tat written 1 uncle name xD

assitant - Nalekha aya(left) , driver - Palitha aya(right)

when v arrived sri lanka, v then heading 2 hotel n check in
and is 4 star hotel xD
v had our dinner after bath
v r tired go sitting plane n so the tour guide let us rest early n start our journey the next day.

the next day 14/3, after breakfast, v went to cheif rev place where there is a open ceremony tat had invited 1700 rev come 4 dana, v were they represent malaysia xD and oso others devotees too, from kuching, johor, PJ,etc.

hoooo, thought bak is really tired of sitting in the bus
after visited rev place, v took 5 hours of journey to a place call anuradhapura
is a place where the 1st place the buddha tooth being place .oh ya, on the way v ate coconut at the road side, it suprised me tat the coconut is in yellow n the spon v use 2 eat the meat of coconut is the husk of coconut, nice!

15/3(wed) , v depart from hotel, then v heading 2 sigiriya, a place wher a king stay last time,
there r 1870 steps to walk up to the palace..half hill there is a painting tat had left thousand years ago,
huu, n i did it!!
yeah!
but wat can c up there is juz a green scenery n an empty place built wif rock xD

16/3(thurs), v went 2 1 temple, tat need us 2 climb up too xD
is a place wher the king built the place n placed some buddha status there..
there is 4/5 times the king had built..
n outside was a bodhi tree..
as our timing is bout 12pm , there is a puja , there tradition is to close al the door 4 15min, n aftertat only allow us 2 enter n continue our visit.
oh ya, the bad news is my camera had no battery in a sudden, the spare 1 oso ><
shit, my mood is ruin @#$%
the tuor guide then bring us 2 spice garden 2 visit the plant tat famousin sri lanka, n i borrow electric from the owner's office 2 charge my battery, they are so kind 2 help,

n didn't accept any sen!

oh my..
no energy 2 write it all
short n simple xD
v when 2 tooth rehlic , kandy
n noe the history of the buddha's tooth!

v oso when 2 rev shantha's temple, is soo nice n all the sunday dhamma school's children welcome us warmly at the gate, they play drum -- band
VIP xD
ya... too over~~

i was living in 70-an, is like so backwards..
but is good actually, is juz tat so healthy!
xD
i will go again definitely !
wait me SRI LANKA!!! <3

5/3/12 --------> 29/2/12

master piece V-V

yeah~~

hohoho xD


mix mix mix ++=+=+=+=+=+=

juz keep cutting, juz keep cutting xD

TADA!
tat time v were saying 29/2 four years once, so let's celebrate together n decided 2 make carrot cake on these special day,..
but, sadly ching isn't free tat day, so v postpone 2 thurs, unfortunately thurs i'm having a vocal class, can play till late nite, so v postpone again 2 fri..
but, whn reached home after vocal class, on fb only realized tat wy had no car 2moro(fri), so postpone again 2 mon, today..
hahah
kinda funny, but damn excited bout today...
ching was the 1 who arrived 1st then follow by wy of course..
9something -.- mean ? 950 xD "the only thing wy did perfect wif xD"

hahaha... v gossip awhile, then only walk 2 kitchen wif a brain tat had no any kill wif baking cake, anyway, v start wif cutting the carrot into small slide..
ching n wy was like tired after cutting xD

ching --- egg
wy --- wtching
me --- eating carrot xD
v 3 --- flour xD ~400g of flour made us busy -.-v ~

v mix everything into the mixture..
then only heat up the oven, ok.. wait 4 bout 45 min
*ding* yeah! everyone jump up xD
walk/jump/run towards the kitchen~
hooooooo, smell of better is damn nice xD
but not carrot -.-
then wy n ching was busy wif taking out the cake from the oven..
n aftertat i was busy writting our name on it xD
wao, our FIRST HOMEMADE CARROT CAKE
hmmm, ok la, nice wif the butter taste, juz weird tat is not carrot, they eat 1 slide thn stop eating d.. cz the butter made ppl feel like vomit >< wait 4 the time v pass, v talk / sleep / laugh / sing / salegirl / fart xD hahahahhahahahahah, ya, FUN! 3pm, v r heading 2 curry fish restaurant.. omg! RM 86.60 -.- the fish head is so damn expensive ><
nvm, at least v noe it 4 now xD
no next time?...
anyway, i did enjoy the time wif u all , chingu , saranghae , kamsahamida <3

hmmps... bia nen

tats the mistake i made?..
ok.. 28/2 is the exam...
i 27/2 mummy willingly let me practice sis car..
my heart was pumping hard every second...
mayb cz is mum, n i'm over confidence on it ..
i cried after practice..
n feel damn super ease after tat..

mayb i'm giving myself too much pressure..

but, i felt i'm so fortunate..
having u all <3
yc, cant online but sms me n cheer 4 me
wy, the languages thing "hwaiting" , i'm touch n smiling on wat u had did T__T
jetson, 4 msg in a time.. u made me calm..
zy, ur wish is the most suprise 1~
st(sis friend) she wish me in fb! ini lagi shock.!!
el, thx , i didnt noe u noe tat..
hc, u text me n ask me bout it after my test ~

but, sorry 4 all make u all disappointed, i would steal away all ur words xD
thx <3
daddy always giv ppl confort in another way..
"is like tat de la, beginner does easy suit with different car"

n ya, today..
exam..
the thing i scare the most is HILL
i think i hav a "scare hill penyakit"
is there any medicine?.. no -.-
i need 2 challange it ,i noe.. but i scare.//
anyhow i pass the hill tes , then goes 2 parking ><
oh gosh...
wat had i done?... shit, over the yellow line..
sometime v should't obey the rule -.-
fine..
is over...
n was calming myself tat next time everything will be ok..
but, when bak home, i saw mum disappointed face..

i dun like this >

when i called mum after the exam, i heard mum disappointed voice *OMG/ I DISLIKE*

i will do my best!!!

~ 永远好友 ~

刚刚在看“拜金女王” 的时候，你突然浮现在我脑海...（感动part xD)

想到那时我颈生了红红的东西...

告诉你时，你比我还担心 ...

一直对自己说会好的,但晚上的时候，越来越红...

你还帮我上网找/问你妈那是什么... *感动*

当时拍照，上传给你们看...

边安慰我---说很快好的...

隔天，来了你的简讯 “ur skin ok d ?" 还叫我不要上班 xD

你听了， 叫我问 mc 是要真么样才能好~

哈哈， 听说你在sabah 时，脚伤了有传简讯给我..

谢谢你们，让我知道我在你们的心里是有地位的 xD

永远爱你们 <3