MeAningFul

时间回不到开始的地方。

对于已经错过的人事，

不用再试着去挽留，

走了就走了，

即使回来，

也已经不是从前。

谁能保证那

本该是属于你的？

有些东西原本就是让你牵挂，

而不是获取的。

对于得到，

我们都应该充满感激，

感恩让我们学会珍惜

珍惜让我们时时幸福。

心若平常，

得失都是云烟。

' little thing '

hehe, daddy in good mood =D
we watch hong kong drama together (normally he will scold why i watch drama wheni learn nth from it)
i dont have a habit of after return home n straight away bath, so i ate, watched, then sleep. daddy was like, ask u to bath 1st right?
i : laterr...
daddy : harrr, did u keep the cloth?
i : i did la. those havent dry
daddy : ya meh? okok, my fault
(silent)
daddy : still, u have to bath 1st!
i : later la xD

cute nagging xD

hmmmmm :(

this is not the way it should be like
mind - just let go
heart - stay
what am i now?
can anyone pull be harder out from the hole?
the hole is toooooo deep.
why?
love someone, this is not the way of you showing ur love to the love one.
everyone has feeling.
how can u just b like ntg with others?
i gonna find it out, its suffer, let me die of suffering,
i wan back the me! me! please return me T_T
where am i? who am i? what am i doing?
the feeling im 100000% sure it still there, still, have to hide ><
cried for thousands of minutes. just for you.  

OE - 11/6/13 -

7 month plus, it passed, memories floated around, tears rolling down involuntary(8)
the last was 11/6 , but feeling still there , that fresh, i request for a text everyday. only reason to c him, now, the things we needed the most is TIME.
we missund each other, my prob at the very first,high expectation, never think of ur feeling, but something is true that, i never play with it.
make you smile, i hope i can continue with this, but u dont wanna talk to me
thx for everything

Bowling

Basket robin

Moviesssss
MCD
KFC
Jacket
Card
Money handicraft

i appreciate it very much, thx..
no regret of having you, happy moment always,
keep smiling, no cigarette, study well, do well in ur projek, treat future her nicely, sweetly,
your promise : wont leave :'(
i'll rmb every single thing u tell me.
bye, my love 1, i still love you.

yOu

• draw plan of ur life
• draw a massage inbox form
• my birthday card
• a letters 
• lyrics 

I remember once i asked u , you kena gantung school fo 3 days?
you write it in a essay form , funny !
always make me laugh in the class, ur actions, ur words.
sit beside me for more than half a years
sleeping is ur hobby ? habit? -.-
asked u to study, u did for this sem, i c  ur hard work
but PBS? ishhhh, u did la, but make sure dont postpone again
we sing melody, bruno marz songgg(like it!) , jason marz... fuhhhh xD

-M-E-M-O-R-I-E-S-

My Dearest Grandpa

Things happen, no one can predict what's going to happen in our life..

15/05/2013( Wednesday)

after school, as usual waiting for my mum to fetch me home, but that day, my sis came n fetch me, when i gt into the car, sis said " grandpa admitted at Temerloh hospital, he was fainted when he the treatment of dialysis is on going,  wanna follow?"

1st thing come to my mind was, i need to go n visit him, but how bout my studies? 21 is my final.

when i reach home, mummy with an tearing eyes, asking me whether wanna follow her or not, i say i will, and my heart was thinking i dont wanna miss the chance, i dont wan this to b the last.

after i took my bath, v depart from house to temerloh, sis drove from KL to Bentong, and mum drove from Bentong to Temerloh. it takes bout 3 and a half hour to reach, when we reach, uncle and my cousin was there, and my grandpa is surroundded with small tube around his hand , nose and neck.

without my awareness, the tears rolling down, like water fall... it does, its hard to see him suffer with all the tube, its hard to see him breathing with the support of machaine. Things we do, wake him up , keep calling him, asking him not to sleep so much, he open his eyes! he did, for about 5 to 6 second, thn closed again. Once, he open eyes with tears, my mother, my aunt, go towards him and ask him to stay strong, remind him bout Johor trip that he had suggested weeks ago.

2hours gone, we've been there 4 2 hours, the visiting hours are off.

we have to go back, we go to bentong to have our dinner, my 2 uncle from Johor and Singapore cant go to the hospital during that time to visit my grandpa as the visiting hours are off, and they suggest to stay at my grandma hse 1st, and go to the hospital in the morning.

i stay with my grandma too, as i planned to skip school the next day.

16/05/2013 (Thursday)

woke up around 0730am, changed and get ready to had a breakfast then depart to hospital.

while we are getting ready, uncle which over9 in the hospital, accompany my grandpa, called, asked my grandma to buy some adult dypers for my grandpa. it was at 0800am.

Then few minutes later, the uncle from Johor received a call from the same uncle, saying my grandpa cant ady, passed away. that second, i can only hear my grandma's cry.... 

i hold my tears.. the atmosphere is silent... cool... 

i texted my mum, dad and my sis

sis call me and ask, really cant d ? we both cry otp.

daddy reply and ask me take care of grandma.

my grandma is so strong, stronger than what i expectated.

and the funeral goes on for 3days.

when we are free, we go to the coffin, talk to grandpa, ask him to rest well, no need to suffer anymore.

this thing happen. it just warn me to be with my family members all the time, spend time with them, shre things with them, do make myself feel the feeling of regret.

--- Appreciate What I Have ---

ReSuLT 1

21.3.2013 --- Thursday 

When i reached school in the morning, just only know that result is coming out,
and some of my schoolmates ady get the result, some excited , some was wondering bout which subject to retake...
And me? had check ntg n thought that result coming out at 12pm..
the whole day was wondering how's my result would me.
when im on my way back to classroom from washroom, my classmates told me the network run smooth, can check.. my feeling is excited + scare + stun.
the result overall quite good, pass!
but it just doesnt reach my target...

for this sem, i need to study double hard, hope that PBS really help me
no more playing around
Form 6 life is tough (in study)
all the best to all f6 candidates too....